As I code in Ruby trying to design some app, a few thoughts from my past pass through my mind. Although these thoughts of mine suppose to be focused on programming, not my past, I sense an allegorical experience developing for which I must learn in order to successfully build this app.
When you are designing, you somewhat dig into the past of yourself for structure, or some type of framework. You hold sacred information no other will ever know or believe if told. The other will probably find it “corny.” Instead of telling this information, it is placed in an art form for admiration. In my case, it’s programming. I see it as an art.
What is holding me back, or causing me to take mini breaks each time something complex happens, even in a programming assignment? Once I hit a road block, I get an urge to withdraw or surrender. Sometimes withdrawing helps me think better. Somethings aren’t always simple or in my control.
Oftentimes I hear these cliches such as “Go big or go home” or “Can’t take the heat, get out the kitchen.” It is not as easy done than said. Personal transformation takes a process. Most memories from past are just tools to solve a familiar problem in whatever situation.
Since programming is commonly about building relationships among objects, some of my memories regarding my relationship mishaps with people surface. I have wondered how I could have improved or what could I have done to avoid those mishaps. Eventually, I stop thinking about it, because I do not have an answer. These people already left my life, so it’s no point in dwelling about it. However, these allegorical experiences about relationships have helped me with building apps. Strange… Make the A.
While growing up, I’ve always been told to make a name for myself, not for someone else. “Make a name for myself” became my mantra, except that I did not know how to make a name for myself. It was not taught but told. In other words, only I could define the standards and policies in making a name for myself through trial and error.
This blog started as a tutorial-type blog for basic study techniques for life sciences courses. Instead, it turned into a mixture of snippets about how to pretty much teach yourself and to protect yourself socially. Lately, I found out that only legal relationships can actually build into or add-on to something without much damage. All my childhood and young adult friendships would go bye-bye, unless they turn into some sort of legal relationship such as business partnership or marriage. With a mind like mine, I could surpass using relationships to make ends meet. That’d be my specialty and why people would secretly come to me for advice. What I learned from business is to keep the “overhead” costs low.
So, I decided in a FUN and legal way to write what I knew and experienced. Sometimes, I would write in riddles to help people creatively think better strategically. Any advice given would not be the answer, because we all seek for direction. We would like to know if we made the right choice.
Since we really cannot control the outcome of our lives, making the right choice is not necessarily what our problem is. Whatever we think the problem is, it is always something else. That’s just life! Hopefully, my blog can serve as a coping mechanism to you as it is to me. Make the A.
More things happen when you do more for yourself.
Although volunteering at nonprofits and/ or simply helping others are great teaching tools for learning compassion, patience and/ or valuable professional skills, let’s be honest: it can drain tremendous energy. Lately, gratitude and appreciation from others have been waning, especially in the job market. Most of the time energy is not being reciprocated.
Sure, the job gets done, but it gets done eventually. Some respect has been lost for quality and taking time to achieve quality. Also, it’s about integrity. Knowing that you’ve done a job well honors your integrity. In turn, you experience growth—enlightenment.
Two weeks ago, I’ve achieved this enlightenment by self-publishing one of my academic research review papers. Who knows if I will ever submit it in public domain or how many times it will be cited? All I know is that I’ve done a job well. Knowing this builds my confidence and, in turn, builds my energy. Make the A.
Go a head and dare to live! Nothing’s refreshing than liberating yourself. If you feel the urge to do anything, do it, but that does not imply breaking any laws, though. Life adventures shall be free to experience.
This morning I had the urge to dance as if I have dreamed about dancing. I listened and downloaded music catering to me, my soul, my experience. I didn’t bother try to find what’s trendy in the music industry. It wasn’t about that as it was about me.
Maybe, I should find a Arthur Murray studio in my area to dance like this to Marc Anthony’s Vivir Mi Viiiidaaa la la la la. Song in video is also sensual and vibrant. To my rumba/ salsa fans, you know what I am talking about—it’s a Cuban thing. Make the A.
Okay, I promise this my last self-pity blog about females in the technology and science world. The females from the younger generation may have it better than me. After middle and high schools across this nation finally implemented/ emphasized a program on the importance of technology and science in classrooms, males will soon become used to seeing females in those classrooms. Hopefully, the bias and sexism will gradually disappear, at least in that realm.
Sure, I can set up my own business and/ or work in the private sector, but hiding, remaining in one social group because of, i.e., race or isolating myself from the masses does not promote social changes. Not every developer/ engineer is always a white male, or even look like a nerd. Think: the characters Allison Blake, Henry Deacon, Dr. Grace Monroe or Zane Donovan in TV show Eureka. I miss this Syfy’s show Eureka. This show has broken the stereotypes about scientists, at least what they look like. Unfortunately, they are still mad. (He, he, he. I got jokes.)
So, discrimination is very REAL. Nowadays the Internet can perpetuate it. If there is bullying online, there is also discrimination. Filtering online profiles can make it extremely easy for recruiters or employers to break the Equal Employment Opportunity law, even if a company “enforces” it. I can be the best candidate for the job but am not chosen, because I do not “fit the culture.” Some professional terms can even sugarcoat discrimination. Sometimes, I just haven’t met the “experience requirements.” Make the A.
Politically, the structure of an university is simple: grants, grants, and grants. Most grants derive from sponsorship. These grants also indicate which programs will or will not be developed. Unless you are part of faculty, you have no say in this process. What I mean by you is you as a student.
Although you have a choice in which programs to major, learning tends to be limited to the availability of grants. Also, learning seems a bit , or a whole lot, categorical and/ or narrow according to how distinctive subjects are prepared for curriculum.
Since the new millennium, the 21st century has been revamping the 20th century university structure and moving towards more interdisciplinary majors (and careers) to catch up with ever changing technology. Some degrees may become obsolete, or not be worth much after 3 or 5 years.
However, in my opinion, I do not think that it is meant for an undergraduate to remain at Bachelor’s or entry level for more than 3 or 5 years. To move up means to increase your education, which in turn increases your training/ professionalism. Through it all, you become a self-learner—the goal of education. Make the A.
How many women feel they lack a mentor who understands them? In some areas of my life, I know I do. There need to be more female career-oriented mentors, especially in science.
From previous blog, I’ve mentioned and am paraphrasing that society misperceived a modern woman’s role(s). A modern woman can contribute to society as well as raise her family. I think?? Although marriage and family tend to be a woman’s personal choice, how does it impact her contribution to society? Without female career-oriented mentors’ guidance, how can I balance these soon-to-be issues as I get older?
Will I exclude myself from choosing one over the other? I know for sure that I cannot survive without either a career or a family. Some where along the line, I will have to make this ADULT decision. For right now, I am hiding behind mommy. Make the A.
Since the feminist movement, equality for women has been an interesting and tricky subject to discuss or to write. Many women face many backlashes because of equality. For example, women have “equality,” but she may need to be careful if she marries—then, she will be under the authority of her husband by norm.
In my opinion, it is not the laws that prevent women from participating in job markets or any other markets, but the norms prevent them. Sometimes, I wonder if these norms will prevent my name being picked from a pile of resumes for a highly intelligent/ intellectual position. The impression from HR maybe that I am a woman, may marry and have children, so it is a waste of time to hiring a woman for a position like that, because that position requires her to be flexible and independent. Hence, her husband may not allow it.
However, in the scenario above, equality does not seem to be the real issue that women have. It is their misconceived role in society and in marriage. These roles contradict each other, which may make women a bit scatterbrained in terms of balancing them. Also, it appears that women have more rights single than married. Make the A.
Early summer I read an article about a father using his all resources to discover the mutation in his daughter’s genes to understand her undefined diagnosis or syndrome. The article made me question the healthcare system as a whole.
How trained are medical doctors in developing novel methods in disease prevention and detection?
Would healthcare cover the expenses of such lengthy and routine methods?
Should patients’ medical treatment be limited to conventional medicine?
Hence, the real question is does socialized medicine work. Just imagine sitting in your doctor’s office after an examination, and the doctor tells you, with a blank impression on his face, that he is not completely sure of your diagnosis or syndrome. His uncertainty may result from his limited understanding, but is he not a trained medical professional?
Moreover, it is not your doctor’s fault as it may be the fault of conventional medicine for misdiagnosis or malpractice. Although medical research is important, time is not always on patients’ side for, i.e., new drug discoveries. Regardless of the political circumstances behind the healthcare system, a patient has a choice to individualize his or her health. Thanks to the father who saved his daughter. Make the A.